How can I move my blog from here to another blog???

Needless to say the last 2 weeks have been quite long. I had to work 1hr 30mins away from home which meant spending the night at my mum's house. Am not complaining I just much prefer my bed. So am supposed to be helping this guy who drives me up the wall with his negativity. He sucks all the energy out of me and every evening after work I feel Like I need some kind of jump start. On top of that, I had to be a witness to my replacement being fired. She hadn't even been their 2 whole weeks. I felt horrible especially since she was being fired over the phone and I had to be their to get keys from her and ensure she take everything that belongs to her so she doesn't have to come back to the hotel. SO now I have to go back and help until they find another replacement. I have one more week helping this guy which means early morning pep talks on positive thinking.

So today was the official 1st day for my replacement. We have this tiny tiny office that is barely enough for 2 people but had to fit 3 today. I had to train my replacement. I felt overwhelmed and almost irritated. I just hoped it didn't show. She's nice but she talks too much and asks too many questions and crowded me today. My organizer had a list of things for me to do but all I could do was cross off 3 things on the list. I felt rushed and just needed to get out of the office and take a breather. Well needless to say my list is still long and will get longer tomorrow. I hate that am leaving. I miss my boss already and I know he'll miss me loads. But the highlight of my day was my bonus check......yeah me.....I finally got a bonus. I know for a fact I am totally blessed. God has his eye on me and thats why I know my leaving is totally for the best. I just pray I have a better attitude tomorrow. I will wake up with the fish philosophy in mind.

Is there any way to block non tblog members from checking my blog?

I don't know why I didn't tell him about my trip to Baltimore earlier I guess it didn't come up but I was going to tell him on Sunday. Anyway he called me and we talked for afew minutes then he said he had to go but will call me back. He didn't call back. Monday came and I figured since he has a busy day, I will let him call me when he gets a chance. No call. This bugs me. So around 8:30 after dinner I call. No answer. I try a couple more times. No answer.So by now am frustrated. I call his brother who tells me they were at dinner. Now I wonder why he couldn't do the same thing. It would take less than a minute to pick up the phone and let me know whats up. Needless to say I was not too happy. All I ask is a call a day. Trying to make this long distance thing work takes effort and to me talking everyday is essential. I should point out we have had this conversation several times and it has come to the point where I wonder if I should even bother. Maybe I wouldn't get pissed if I didn't expect a call. He sent a text saying he hoped I understood why he didn't call. Honestly....I don't understand I don't see how out of 24hrs in a day you can't pick up the phone for a minute and say hi to your girl friend. Again even a text is good enough for me just something to let me know he is still there and fine. Is that too much to ask? So anyway when I got back home I called. Again no answer. I figure he is asleep but I cant help getting frustrated. Its annoying and I hate being annoyed. I guess I should just stop expecting him to see it my way.

Today was crazy busy. There is a Van Halen concert in town and we are sold out at the hotel. What is sad is I had no clue who they are. A guy that was very offended by my ignorance decided to give me a quick history of the "awesomeness" of the band. But that is neither here nor there. I got a $20 tip from a lady who thought I was just great. Now I feel strange getting tips especially since I would do the same thing for anyone else. I mean its my job to ensure people are happy with there stay at my hotel right? Nway we went back and forth about the tip and I finally accepted it. Is it rude to refuse a tip? See where I grew up, it's highly offensive to refuse a gift but its strange to get a tip for something you would do for anyone or is it just me?????

I was just thinking today how much I will miss my boss. He has been great and I've learnt so much from him. My replacement starts on Monday and am so sad. Yes I got a promotion but I love where I am right now. I've been there 1yr and am in love with everyone. Now I have to go to a new place and start over. I hate starting over. I have to learn peoples habits and figure out what motivates them......uuugh. Growing up sucks :o(

Its been a while since I have been on but I think am back. I didn't realize how therapeutic this was until I read some old blogs. Nway Life so far has been good to me. I love my job and and things have been going great. Right now am trying to organize my life but its kinda tricky given that am not sure where my job will be taking me. My lease is ending and am not sure what to do. Should I move to a cheaper place??? What lease should I get.....I have 2 days to decide what I'll do. I need to do my GMAT but the tricky thing is I don't know where I will be making this difficult to pick a grad school. My boyfriend's moving to a different state in a couple of months and he says he has no plans. Which makes it difficult for me coz my life plan included him. he says he hasn't made plans for himself so he cant make plans for me. Well, I wasn't really asking for him to make plans for me, I just needed a general idea of what he anticipated so I can figure out whether I should start looking for a job where he is headed. Nway his response kinda irritated me and for that reason I will begin to think of myself and not of us.My plans for right now will be to make me happy. Enough of the rumbling. I will save some for tomorrow.

May be I dont like you just for today, May be I dont want to be with you just for today, May be for just one day I want to hate you, For making me feel the way i do, Just for today. Tomorrow, I promise to love you again. Because deep down I do, but just let me be for today.

Alot has happened since the last time i was on. I got promoted an had to move 1hr 1/2 away from home. The place i am right now needs help really bad. it is nothing like where i was before and it is taking all of me to keep the place running. My plan is to keep a positive attitude and proclaim things that are not as though they are and they shall come to pass. Right now am looking for an apartment so am staying at the hotel and coming home on the weekends. i tried driving everyday but it became too expensive so..... school is back next week and i still have not figured out how i shall make it work. it is my last semester and i have to tough it out. All i can do is pray that God will make it work for me some how. Y'all have a blessed day and do pray for me that i may have the strength to work through the next 3 months.

am in pittsburg....having a good time. at least the weather is doing me justice. i dont have to bundle up. hoping to shop and cheer me up. and yah....i guess will catch up later.

I need more people in my life.
people i can talk to and trust.
people who see where am coming from and understand.
people who will encourage me and lift me up when am down.
people who are able to help me grow in all aspects of my life.
I need to feel wanted......for my knowledge and kindness.
To be able to make a positive influence on a life.
i want to make a change, a change in my life that will make others want to change.
i want someone in my life, someone to share in my joys and sorrows.
Someone i can relate with. someone i feel free with. someone who'll not judge me. aomeone i can trust. someone i will know cares for the things i care about, even when they seem ridiculous.
Finally, i need to learn love, God's love as in cor. 13.

Do you think am strange? Do you think I take life too seriously? Do my values and beliefs hold you back? How are we to make it if we see life from different angles? You say blue, I say red.....how can we agree? For how long can we ignore the differences? For how long can we avoid it? Is prayer enough......is love enough?????? What happens when the distance is closed...how easy will it be to ignore the differences? How long will it take before it blows up in our faces????? Are we hidding from the truth? Then again I may be thinking too much.

Love is patient, Love is kind, It does not envy, it does not boast, It is not proud, It is not rude, It is not self-seeking, It is not easily angered, It keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. i cor.13: 4-8

I have had so much favor in my life I really have no right to complain about anything. 3 weeks ago, I was getting ready to pay my bills, so I open the electric bill praying the bill will be less than $300. so I open the bill and believe it or not......it was $20. I have never had a bill of less than $300 let alone $20.

If that's not enough, I find out while busy trying to pay my gas bill that the $86 I thought I was to pay ( which by itself was a miracle to me) was actually a credit. I didnt have to pay a thing for it.

Come Monday, am going through my mail and lo and behold, there was a $12.11 check in the mail from sprint.

You've heard me gripe about my job. Nway afew weeks back i promised myself not to complain about anything at work instead take everything as a learning experience and grow with it or at least learn something from it. So yesterday I go to work, and we are sitting at the desk talking about nothing in particular. The manager walked in and when everybody else left, she whips out this gorgeous hand bag and tells me its for me.

Funny thing is that her daughter had come to work with the same handbag and we were talking about how pretty the bag was and how we were each going to buy one just like it.

This month has been so blssed for me I had to share.

Ya'll have a blessed day.

I got my mum from work yesterday and headed for the hospital to go see grandma. well as soon as i walked into the hospital my stomach became quizzy and terrible memories started flashing through my head. i wanted to turn and run back to the car but i knew i had to see her. she looked better than i had thought which put my heart at ease but i could tell she was in alot of pain. she wanted to show me her stiches and i just couldnt bring myself to look at them.

we made her laugh and she honestly looked like she was thrilled to have us around. she didnt want us to leave but we had to coz mum had to go back to work. she was transfered to rehab today so tomorrow after work i'll go down and stay with her for a while i know she'll like that.

 

see i think i like to run away from things that are painful by pretending they dont exit. My "grandma" has been sick. she's been in so much pain because of problems she's been having with her knees. but she is so good at masking her pain, you can never tell she's in pain. she had been told a knee surgery would help her and she's been scared to get it because of the complications that might come along with it. on tuesday she finally did go for the surgery.

i have been trying not to think about it and even contemplated not going to see her for fear that i may breakdown and cry. how selfish of me to worry about my feelings when she is laying in the hospital bed in pain. my mum came home today from seeing her and she said she didnt look too good and that she was in so much pain she couldnt even hide it.

i was fixing my sister's hair and tears just rolled down my chicks. i managed to go to the bathroom without any of them realizing i was in tears. now while in the bathroom i bargained with God. telling him to heal her and i will keep my fast. eat a meal a day and read my bible. some how it feels like i did something wrong. maybe i didnt pray hard enough or i broke the many promises i made to God. i dont know what, but i need God to heal her.

i guess i cant sleep coz i feel the need to talk to my boyfriend coz i feel we didnt end our conversation on the right foot. but i think he is asleep so i'll go watch Gregory Dikow or Paula White and put my soul & heart to rest. i pray i'll overcome whatever this is and just be my old happy self.

why am i so extra sensitive when it comes to my relationship. i realised that i have a problem when it comes to dealing with my boyfriend. i always want to call him but i feel like am crowding him. when i call him and he doesnt pick up ......i cant help but to call like 3 more times..which makes me feel weird. most of the time he says he'll call back but he doesnt call back. maybe he fell asleep or he got tied up or he had to call someone else.....nway when he was gone, i felt my emotions were more in check. i didnt have to worry about calling him or him calling me. of course i missed him but i didnt have these crazy feeling that are now back like am on a roller coaster. today the same thing happened. i called him and he was on the pbone with someone so he said he'd call back. an hour later i called back and he wasnt on the phnone but he was online....so i got home tried to call him, but he was calling his parents....so nway i start feeling like a nag. so by the time he calls me, i have no psych to talk to him and am feeling alittle neglected (which was not the case when he was away). so i tell him how i feel and he goes quiet. says he doesnt know what to say. it sucked. i hate how i feel right now. i know he loves me and all but i need a remedy for my need to have him be always there when i need him. to expect him to stop all he's doing to talk to me....i dont get to see him but once a month so i always want him to put me first before everythin...or rather everyone. uggghhhhhh...this sucks. i think i need help and lots of prayers for my emotional needs. am supposed to be happiest when with him but i notice how frustrated i am most of the time coz of him. which doesnt make any sense to me.....he is the one i want to get married to but how do i deal with this distance thing...we've been dating 5yrs so am not planning to lose him. help .......

i had told ya'll about the girl who said she was raped....well, today i saw the guy who had supposedly raped her. am guessing the charges were dropped coz he was still at the hotel and at work (he's a construction worker). so to jump to conclusions, she must have lied about it. you wonder why someone would do something like that. talk about crying wolf.

I forgot to knock on wood when i said am always early to work. so as a result i overslept and got to work 20mins late. nway walking in everything was a mess. the guy working last night is not used to that shift and he had everything a mess. he checked out people wrong and there was a whole bunch of people checking out at the same time making everything look confused. to make matters worse we got this cool coffee machine yesterday that we are all trying to figure out how to use. so you can imagine the guests have no clue whats going on with it. so here i am trying to fix these errors on the computer, then some woman presses the coffee button too long and the coffee overflows...and am the only one who knows how to empty the thing coz i was there when they were installing it. i run to fix that then come back to check people out. then the hot chocolate runs out again am the only one who knows how to fill the containers..... nway i wasnt able to do my bible reading for the day or even try study before class coz i have to go to class after work.but the day was great coz i love my classes....

Today i got to work pretty early as usual and i was trying to catch up on the back office stuff before my shift started. nway i go to the desk and look outside the window there were like 6 cop cars outside. A cop walks in and i ask what the story is. well apparently, a call was made from a room and the guest stated that she had just been raped. i was shocked to say the least. Now the story is that the lady was out all day and night talking to every guy that walked by. she apparently was hiting on the guy who worked the night shift. so nway, she walks out with the cops...am guessing for a rape test or whatever it is they do...and she looks....almost scared. afew minutes later, they walk out with the guy who supossedly raped her in cuffs and the guy was in tears... the whole picture bothered me and i wasnt sure who to feel sorry for or what exactly to think. to make matters worse, when the girl came back, she was joking around with the girl she was with like nothing happened. i dont know...the whole picture was questionable to me. sad story but true...

I cant seem to find anything anywhere...and everything looks so cluttered and....ughhhh....okey maybe another hour on here will clue me in on what's going on. am glad someone thinks this is great coz then there is hope for me.

Nice day all around, had to work in the morning for like 3 hours and be in school all day till 5.45. now am just sleepy and tired not forgetting i have to be up at 4.45am to prepare to go to work. but i realise i would't know what to do with myself if i didnt have something to do around the clock. the other day i discovered this group called super chick and am in love with one of their songs that i cant seem to get out of my head.....'we live' now all i need to do is convince my sister to get the cd for me. it sure would brighten my days at work. am beginning to bubble so i'll be gone and will check y'all laters. be blessed.

My boy friends back and i am thrilled. i have really missed him. truely abscence makes the heart grow fonder. he's been gone like a month and talking to him was terrible coz of connection and conversations had to get cut short when the minutes on the card were over.....but now he's back yeee!! other than that, schools back and i am psyched....hopefully the psych will stay with me through the semester...this is the year of new beginnings so psych for school sure is a new beginning for me. have a psychful day